My ailing country

Malaysia has been ailing this last few years. Corruption, political instability, racial tension, a sliding down currency and economy. A scary trend.  What I know for sure is this is the crumbling of the old world order, which does not work anymore. The building of the new world order has to be expedited and intensified. Racial unity, oneness of religion, equality, eradication of all kinds of prejudices. For one to survive this and to live a fully happy life, one has to turn his/her face to God and to have faith that crisis and victory is the flow of life. A temporary crisis.

Into the 40s

I am 43 this year that is well into my 40s. I have been thinking much about this phase in life. Not sitting down and thinking about it, but it's in my mind all the time. Being 40, and what's next. Much comes to mind, as in saving for the boy's college, work, what do I do when I retire, do I do what I am doing now or do I take up some thing else. Counseling has been coming to the mind over and over , do I pursue it? I am afraid. Afraid of the hard work needed, afraid of the time taken, afraid of the commitment. But at the same time I may not want to be in the same routine. Nothing worth having comes easy.  

42 in a month

I havent been on this space for some time now. Have been just moving along and seeing the days turn into weeks, months and years. I feel frustrated to see it just moving past and feel the need to grab it and do something meaningful and purposeful...but...I am grateful and thankful for all that I have but feel like something is lacking...

11th January 2014

My mother in law passed away at 440pm on the 11th January 2014 in GHKL. She was surrounded by her children and in laws. She managed to see most of them and advised and gave blessings. I would like to remember her as a woman who is always feeding us with food that's how she shows her love. Kepong for us will never be the same again as going to Kepong means mother in laws place, and her cooking. I can imagine it must be more difficult for my husband for losing his only living parent. No matter how old our parents or we become losing them will live a void. 

Haze, Filter and Health

The annual haze is back, and it's back with a vengeance with API reading of reaching 300-400, unhealthy to hazardous level. I went scrambling to look for an air filter. Procastination got the better of me. Every shop, all 8 of them I went to has no more stock for air filters. I called the larger and the smaller chains all are out of stocks too. Those in the filter business must be having a heyday. I read quite a bit on what filters are out there and what to get and buy. And have some things in my mind. But I cant get any now till all the madness has died down. I am then gonna get one for the bedrooms and the living room and be prepared for the next haze. How we take for granted the clean air that we have, and the blue skies. Sometimes we need a wake up call to start appreciating somethings. 

Blessed with the Best of Friends

If one's wealth is counted by the kind of friends one has, then I am a billionnaire. I have totally awesome friends. Totally awesome who genuinely cares about me, who is there for me, who makes this journey of life so wonderfully sweet. I have 2 bestest friends whom i have knows and been inseparable since I was 7 and I have bestest friends from 10 years ago. They know me at different stages of life, have seen me grown and develop and I cant' imagine better people to surround myself with.

It's already going to be June 2013!

I so remember the year beginning and now it's almost mid year. I have been better at exercising this year. Trying to keep to 2-3 times of running on the treadmill while browsing through the telly.  My 41st birthday was a few days ago. It was a totally glorious happy time I had. My besties came over to my place surprised me and we spent the morning together, just being together. Blissful. We dont do it often enough, but hey having some time together while having young children and a career is a challenge...We are so looking forward to our weekend away in less then 3 weeks....and we are trying to shed some pounds before that, so on the treadmill for me today, and fruits and salads for lunch today:) If wealth is measured with great friends in life, then I am a millionnaire. I have totally awesome friends, and I feel totally blessed. I have friends who care, to talk with, to help me, to give me a shake when I need one, to go shopping when I need one...How did I get so lucky!