A time to Rejoice

We are fasting now for 19 days from March 2nd to 21st and then we will end with celebrating our Bahai New Year. I am feeling the festive mode now. The cookies to make the cakes to bake and we are having a dinner celebration and inviting friends and families on the 23rd March. Many things to do before that. Get house organized and sorted out...I am always in the organizing and sorting out mode..I suppose it doesnt end as life it needs constant readjusting and rearranging to get it just right, better looking and more organized. And as any planning I am addicted to lists. I have a list for everything.  And I tick them off as I go along. I started with the garden and added in more colours and got it neater, and had new grass laid. It's looking good now, I have arranged for the caterers and the chairs and the tables and also thinking of idea of injecting some basic decors.

The fasting month is good for me especially as it draws me to what's really important, praying, thinking of goodwill, reading spiritual words and cooking meals for the family and also spending more time getting to know the community.

One of my most favorite saying by Abdul Baha:

If we are not happy and joyous at this season, for what other season shall we wait and for what other time shall we look? - Abdul Baha

For my Son's

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."

School Dilemma

We decided to enrol our children to Chinese Schools as we felt learning an additional language will be beneficial. Moreover China is an economy giant, and also being Bahais' we tend to travel and have a borderless thing when it comes to country, thus an extra language will take be beneficial. Now my son is in year 4 and Chinese Schools are very academic oriented and to cope in the language my son has to attend tuition almost daily. It pains me to see him being tired and going through so much when I feel he should be playing and running and exploring and not just being academical whole day through. Our education system has become so pathetic that people is losing faith in it and homeschools and private and international schools are mushrooming everywhere. So many seems to avoid the kebangsaan schools and spend so much money in sending their children everywhere else. This country does not seem to be the same place we grow up in, hope there is still hope...but left to be seen. So coming back to my son, we are in a dilemma of moving him back to kebangsaan school or remain in chinese school. So we decided to pray and ask for guidance and see what comes along. Chinese of not to chinese...that is the question.

Sarawak Trip

We just made a trip to Sarawak, the land of the hornbills. This is east Malaysia, about an hour and 45 minutes from Semenanjung Malaysia. I was glad, as it was a 6 days of being together with no electronic gadgets, and 6 days of nature. We did the mangrove tour, saw wild crocodiles, blue crabs, visited the orang utan sanctuary and was amongst oldest rainforest. It made me realise how important to spend time together as often as possible and also to learn new cultures and to be amongst nature. We will do this more often, and thinking about the next destination.

2013 is Here

2013 is here...and we are just about to end our first week for the year! School started, work started and life started. Thankful for so much abundance that we have, to be positive and not to sweat the samll stuffs, to respect relationship of all forms.

Boys are back to school and it has been good, and hubby has taken on new job at BAC and is excited about it. Hope he finishes his masters which he started though to work and study is challenging but will be good for him on the long run.  I hope and pray this year will be a good year in all ways and that I will open our homes and hearts to more people and to give more. Constantly remembering to those much is given much is expected. And yaay, excite about movie with hubby tomorrow, 'Les Miserable's' while kids are away at a birthday party:)...Finding happiness in the little things..isnt that what's life is about.

Goodbye 2012 and thanks for your lessons...

Another year has just passed on like that. And time to take account. I did not try hard or focus at work this year. I wasted too much time idling away. And this pattern is gonna repeat if I dont set goals for myself and to work my way to spend time well. I need to have an objective and goal! And this year i also come to realise there are some things in me i need to work on to have better relationship with my children, spouse, family and friends. And I should not take relationship for granted. This year also reminded me again that storms passes on and the sun shines brightly again, and during stormy weather to have faith. And I want to be thankful for having so much and being blessed with the wisdom to choose and to see the mistakes and to be thankful for blessings. And I so look forward to 2013 and to to make it a better year, God willing.

There is sun and there is rain and then there is the occasional storms

Life sometimes throw you unexpected challenges, and rocks your boat a little harder and you are thrown out of bearing...and lose yourself a bit. But I think it's God's way to say, hey you have been too complacent or hey wake up I am here. So recently this happened to us. There were some work challenge which left us a little scarred not broken but scarred and we are still at the tail end of it. Relying on prayers to guide us, good friends who are there and on our side no matter what helps in the journey. And as any journey it must go on and we will find ourselves in better land soon. We have much to be thankful for and that we must never lose sight. We have been given much...

Rhythm of Life

Life has its rhythm for each season, and sometimes I just let the rhythm rock me slowly and I take it all in one day at time. Hubby has started his Master's, at last. We have been talking about it for so many years. Gonna need sacrifice, time with family, free time, rest time and gonna involve serious work. But he seems excited starting schooling again, and I feel excited seeing him being excited. But it's gonna change our rhythm, as he is always there for the kids running around for them, so I am gonna take in more with them, from going to the park to just being there to put them to bed...and this is the rhythm for the next 2 years. Kids have been going to the park at least 3 times a week and they have made friends to look forward to at the park which is so nice, ah nothing beats having friends at any age. Garden is thriving, have gotten the trellis which I have been thinking for so long.  I am so thankful for all that I have and feel truly blessed. Am looking forward to what the next phase of life is gonna bring!

House, Garden and Family

I was neglecting my garden for about 2 months, just cant bring myself to do anything about it. Each time I walk by I try to ignore how it looks, how shabby it has become, and it looks wthered, sad and totally neglected. The rose plants which have been flowering this last 2 years has completely stopped flowering for the first time. And then one Sunday I started clearing, repotting, fertilising, rearranging, and in 2 weeks the garden looked completely different. Everything looked greener, cleaner, and the roses started flowering. Which remeinded me of life, when we ignore the problems we have they dont go away but becomes worst and starts rotting at the roots...I am in a happier place now, as always I find the happy spot and try to linger in it as long as possible...till something comes up and shakes  its core, but I always get there:) Children are growing so fine...two days ago my oldest one told me that just before his test he said a prayer and that made me totally happy...My husband is starting his Masters program and seems excited about it...and my younger one..oh he is just growing up fast and happy, and I am totally grateful...for all the family and friends that I have.

I turned 40

I turned 40 last Thursday. I mean how did it happen. I was this young girl cycling around everywhere and being crazy and all. I feel 33, I am stuck at 33...I  don't mind being 40, but I used to think 40 is a ripe old age where people were serious and had enough of life and tired and old. But I feel energetic, I feel life has just really started I feel 33!:) I turned 40. And I feel good about it, I feel I am at good part of 40. What's my resolution, I am never one to be good at sticking to any resolutions, but I am gonna make some anyway.

1. To have a mood chart up, did one and gonna put it up.
2. To take care of health, juicing more.
3. To try to let go of the small stuff that I so often get annoyed and worry about...this is a tough one for me.
4. To have some time with hubby alone.
5. To try not to scream at kids so much and to use virtues way...constantly trying.

Getting up and making it happen

Running own business and managing own time has many advantages. You manage your time, you have the flexibility and you have a much better balance of work like. It can also get vague, no direction and no target at times. So sometimes I find myself in a rut or staring into space, which can be scary and gives a feeling of insecurity at times. So I need to set some goals and target. And the same happens at home some times I deal with things as they come along, and I see paper, bills, mails gathering, kids papers books and all the rooms getting piled up with stuff, and it's time for another cleaning and decluttering. I managed to declutter wardrobe and kids closet and gave away many stuffs and realize there is space there now, just cleared kids study and more space there too! Now I need to tackle the living room, with all the mails and bills gathering. The biggest challenge is hubby's computer space and stuff and that's a sensitive subject with him, so I will tackle that the last:). This school holiday will focus on decluttering, and catching up on children's studies. Arjoonha needs to improve on his Bahasa Malaysia and also Chinese Science. So am getting to do workbook and hope he will do much better in the next exam. Also gonna take them to park daily if possible, and spend much time with them. At the end of the day that's what matters, So gonna get uo and make it happen!

School Holidays : Penang Island and Taiping

School holidays just started and we actually started it a little early to beat the jam and the holiday crowd, and truly it's a great decision. We left to Penang on Thursday... Looks like Bayview Beach Penang is gonna be our Hotel of choice. Good rates, clean, nice pools and gardens, food and beach is okay. The beach in Penang is nothing like how it used to be, the water is not very clean and also the beach is very small and not a big deal. But in the West Coast this is a better beach compared to that of Port Dickson and Morib. And there is something about holidaying by the beach, just the sound of the waters and the wind makes it somehow more of a holiday:)  This time we went to Suffolk House for high tea. It was a truly nice experience, being served tea and dainty cakes, sandwiches and scones on tiers...The garden is beautiful and also the mansion itself. The kids truly enjoyed the experience. Then we also had dinner at the place called China House, our friends EK and his wife took us there. Apparently owned by a rich Australian lady,  I thought it was a charming place. It's a very long narrow place, and it's like walking through different worlds...okay may seem to be an exaggeration but what I mean is as we walk in there is the bar, then the courtyard, then the fine dining, family room, reading room, casual dining, and the upstairs is an art gallery for young artist. Such a cleverly combined place. Love it!  Then we have to have a mean at Happy Garden, which has been operating for 28 years, a small shack like place amidst a pretty garden. They serve home made bread and marmalades, American breakfast and local food. Kids had plenty of pool and beach time and I sneaked in a  massage and some needed discussion with hubby. We then went to Taiping for a day. We took the kids to the Taiping Night Safari. Frankly this is not worth the trip as the tram we were on was super noise and the animals are kind of hard to see in the dark. If you really want one go to the Singapore Night Safari. But the Taiping Lake Gardens is worth a visit. First of all it's Malaysia first public park and it's green, lush, serene and beautiful. Kids were happily playing in it for more then an hour. It was a good holiday for the kids, and for the adults too. 

Bhaarata turned 6 and Mother's day

Bhaarata turned 6. My little cheeky, persistent, strong willed child who came into my life 5 years ago (yes he is 6 now:). Everthing about him is so special. He is like a burst of sunshine. Love him so very much.  Bhaarata's birthday is also mothers day this year. A party at Kids sports and gym was arranged for him, and he had all his friends around him and had a blast. It was made more special as 2 of his cousins stayed the night, and the next day was mothers day, so both my sisters and I took my mother out for lunch, and we chatted and laughed forgetting the usual stresses of life for a few hours.

Death is a Messenger of Joy

We believe death is a messenger of joy to those who dies, but those left behind have to learn to cope with living without their loved ones.  I just received news of someone we know in the community passing away due to cancer. Cancer, this illness robs so many families of loved ones, both young and old.  I have my own regrets that I did not visit as I intended to. Thinking there will be another time another chance, and more often then not another time and another chance does not come.  I pray that dear Kasthuri's family will slowly heal and her husband will find solace.

Time Heals All...they say

I have heard that time eventually heals all. Maybe it doesnt heal but the pain becomes lesser...maybe for some things. My cousin lost her child and can something like that heal, maybe she does not feel the intense pain and grief as she once did, but the pain of losing a child cannot be healed. But yes time heals many things else, and I want to believe that eventually all becomes less painful, and less intense and less...

Child

Last 1 week all of us have been praying for the safe return of a child who was kidnapped outside his school around here. The thought of it was devastating and I could not bring myself to even look at the pictures of the parents in the facebook being a mother myself. The kids and I have been praying daily for his safe return, like thousands of other out there. Today at 730am we read the news that he has been found and safely united with his family. What a happy news this is, one that is indesceribable! Thank you God!

We need to be reminded...

Sometimes we need to be reminded that we have much to be thankful for. Yes I may have wanted it differently even had it differently, and then I am reminded to be thankful. This last week when we were at my sisters house she brought us to a home for prayers. This family of 3 lived in a small low cost apartment with no lights at the staircase, rubbish strewn all over a tiny place. Both my sons were with me and I can see my oldest one observing the surrounding and taking it all in. And I felt humbled,  they were so gracious in welcoming us and serving us with whatever they have. And I also used that moment to teach my children to be thankful for what we have and to realise that not all out there has much. Today we were at a morning devotional when a parents brought their daughter who is severely ill with cancer for the devotional and although the young lady's eyesight is failing she insisted to read a prayer. And it made me feel that sometimes how we let our sleepiness and a little tiredness stop us from attending prayers, when we can never know that  we may not be able to do it one day. Sometimes I need to be reminded..And I am truly grateful for all that I have.

Someone else's life

I love reading blog. If I have my own time, other then watching tv, I read blogs, in fact I read more blogs then I do read books, and books are suppose to be my first love. I just love to know how people live their lives and what they do, right from the everyday stuff to the not so everyday ones. This is how I am, listening and finding out about lives around me, and picking up the good ones, wishing sometimes I live their lives..I was feeling a little low yesterday as I really idled the time away and felt guilty and useless. My friend called and I told her how I felt and she said, that is so far from true. That she loves my life and what I do, and how I make people happy. I wasnt totally convinced it did make me feel a little better. Which makes me feel I need to embrace the life I have and make it a little better everyday, as someone out there thinks I have a better life then them...

Incorporating Fruits in every meal

I was watching River Cottage about incorporating fruits in our meals. I have been trying to do this. my oldest boy have been drinking fruit juices for breakfast before school a few times week, need to make this a daily routine. So what better day then to indulge on breakfast then weekends!  I followed the recipe for drop scones from the show and it was great. It's really like American pancakes, smaller in shape and what I do was to smear them,\ with honey and a squeeze of lemon juice and topped them with strawberries and banana slices. My son had 7 of them! Truly yummy! I really didnt follow the measurements I used:

200gm of self raising flour
2 tablespoon of brown castor sugar
2 tablespoons of olive oil
2 eggs
Whisked them all with enough milk to make a smooth better with the consistency to scoop and drop into a pan

 

Arjoonha turned 9

My dearest arjoonha, my eldest son just turned 9 on the 9th of April. My sweet gentle boy. I am so super blessed to have him. He was a wonderful good baby and growing up to be a good natured boy. He loves watching tv, being read a book and told stories, he loves to be with his friends and cousins and love having visitors at home. He is kind and sympathetic and so mature for for his age. And I love him so very much. My wish for him is to grow up being a just person, generous and kind and love what he is and what he choose to do and to be a God fearing person. I love you arjoonha with all my heart.